Wonder in the Whispers

When we drove past the ocean I’d describe the light on the sea as “fairy dust”, I ran across fields doing cartwheels, I sang as loud as I wanted,I had the skewest front teeth, the highest black booties that I would never take off, the puffiest white jacket and the craziest frizzy hair. I played with Barbie dolls up-till 14,I was apart of the drum majorettes, gymnastics team, drama club, tennis team, played soccer, I’d sing in front of crowds, dance wherever I went and always spoke my mind. I was theatrical and confident. And somewhere between growing up that part of me slowly disappeared. The wonder faded into doubt and my confidence became fear. This might be all too familiar to you, it's as if as soon as you start growing up you're silenced and all the wonder and magic no longer exists.

Behind the title - Wonder in the whispers

Wonder - noun a feeling of amazement and admiration, caused by something beautiful, remarkable, or unfamiliar.

This is the dictionary definition of the word wonder, but with most things I love getting the Biblical definition and here it is.

Matthew 6:22-23

22-23 “Your eyes are windows into your body. If you open your eyes wide in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light. If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar. If you pull the blinds on your windows, what a dark life you will have!

This so encouraging! How beautiful to know that if we open up our perspective in wonder and belief our being fills up with light! Like what! I wanna be filled with light, I wanna have uncontainable joy. I desire to live life like this. I get goosebumps and teary eyed just typing this. For so long I'd been living in a dank cellar, pulling up the blinds on my eyes

( and I'll get to sharing that season later) but ever since I got the beautiful reminder of this verse whilst I sat on the floor in my tv room listening to worship music I don't think I could possibly go back to living any other way. This brings me to the word whispers.

One of the many qualities I love about God is his whispers. The world is so loud and busy and distracting and in the midst of all of it God whispers to us each day, and ever since I tuned out of the noise and into His voice, seeking the wonder becomes easier everyday. Finding the wonder in insecurities, the wonder in quiet, the wonder in the mundane.

I snort when I laugh, my eyes disappear when I smile , i either don’t feel anything at all or everything at once, I mess up my words, i overthink, i talk too fast, I get excited about small things, I’m confident and bubbly when I’m comfortable, the beach makes me happy, I make a mean cup of hot chocolate, I eat my cereal with a small spoon, I’m lactose intolerant but ice cream is always an exception, I’m a sucker for cringe rom coms, I can’t dance, I love stars. And this is my journey of choosing to see magic in the ordinary and the wonder in everyday.

oh, and pictured here is my lil reminder of seeing the wonder in everyday.