I'm engaged!!

The last six months have been so incredibly exciting.

Building a life with my best friend has been the most fulfilling, scary, overwhelming and somehow easiest season of my life all at once.

I still can’t believe I get to write these words and that they aren’t just dreams or quiet thoughts anymore, but actual reality. I remember starting this blog shortly after meeting Ben. He stirred dreams in me that I had kept hidden and quiet for so long, and out of that came a space where I could reflect, be real, be honest about where I was, and share what I was learning along the way within this blog. And now, six years later, the same boy who encouraged me to start this blog is becoming my husband. (Ahhhhh!!)

The last few years have been a whirlwind. I went from being a student to stepping into a full-time internship that, quite honestly, drained the life out of me. You would not have wanted to live with me during that season - my family truly got the brunt of it. After a year of feeling deeply unfulfilled, I knew I needed to make a change. Marriage was slowly but surely on the horizon, and I didn’t want to carry career dissatisfaction into our marriage.

At the same time, Ben was walking through repeated failures in his degree. Finishing his degree felt overwhelming, yet he was also saving every cent he could to one day propose. If you had asked 20-year-old me whether I’d date someone for FIVE years, I would’ve laughed. But over those years, we experienced just about every phase possible in a dating relationship: failure upon failure, disappointment, conflict, high highs and low lows, anxiety, dips of depression, identity crises, career crises, family losses, friendship breakups, doubting faith, doubting our relationship and then moments of pure bliss. Belly laughs. Tickle attacks. Deep, intentional conversations. Sharing trauma. Becoming the beststest of friends and everything in between.

I wouldn’t necessarily recommend dating this long as a Christian couple, but this is our story.

As we step into this marriage season, I am beyond excited. Not because life only begins when you get married, that’s simply not true, but because our married life is finally beginning. I’ve always been hesitant to share our relationship on this blog, especially our dating years, because it’s such a fragile and sacred thing, and not everything needs to be shared. But as we enter the covenant of marriage, I feel so excited to share the lessons learnt within our dating realtionshio, season of engagement and married life.

One of the biggest lessons God has been teaching us in this season is surrender - our finances, our future, our home, our friendships, our community, and our careers. And so quickly, we’ve seen His hand in everything. We’ve seen Him do abundantly more than we ever could on our own. Our dependence on Him has had to grow deeper and deeper.

I’m so excited to share more of what God has carried us through and to give Him all the glory. Chat soon!