Value.

Let’s talk about value. Your value.

This verse perfectly sums it up

Isaiah 43 MSG

That’s how much you mean to me!

That’s how much I love you!

I’d sell off the whole world to get you back,

trade the creation just for you.

(Side note: I use the msg version, I just love how poetic and personal it is written)

Do yourself a favor and read the whole of Isaiah 43. Honestly such a beautiful scripture - whenever I’m feeling less than. I love saying this verse out loud as if God is audibly saying it to me and reminding me of the truth. The truth, wow we can often warp the truth - our mind plays tricks with us - telling us that our emotions are truth, our insecurities are truth or that our past is truth.

And tonight my mind told me this; you’re not good enough, you’re never getting over it, you’ve got so much to deal with, damn girl you’re a mess. And instead of entertaining those thoughts for even a second, I ran ( Nah, I hauled ass) to the bible, the only source of truth and words that have authority over my life.

For too long I’d spend time allowing myself to believe the lies, the lies that keep us captive. No! I refuse to allow my world to be built by lies.

So practically, I took out my pen and paper and began to write myself a love letter and this is what I said :

Kendra, you are so valuable. You’re worth it. You are absolutely gorgeous - inside and out. Thank you that you find your value in your creator. Your worth isn’t found in what others think of you or even what you think of yourself. Your value is found in God.

He, who loves you despite all that you are not. He who chooses you every single time. He chooses me every day, no take-backs or trades. He wants me! Thank you that I love a God who would trade the whole world to have me back. He seeks after me, he runs to find me, he fights for my heart and wins every time.

Even before I could allow my current feelings to break me down I immediately replaced it with truth, and as I wrote and cried and listened to worship music (Elevation worships new album) the lies entered my mind and got louder, I turned up my music and as the music drowned out the lies, Isaiah 43 became my anthem.

Let's stop allowing lies to become our anthem, let's sing a new song, let's write a new song.

Side note: In all honesty, this wasn't supposed to be my next blog post, but life has this funny way of working and I needed to write this out. Its this new thing I'm starting, instead of thinking what I'm feeling and allowing it to constantly float around in my mind with no intention of sorting out, I'm actually either writing it out or speaking about it - which is weird for me because allowing myself to sit with my thoughts and feelings is very new and strange to me. But doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is insanity, so here I am, at 12 am writing it out -first draft and all.

In conclusion, read Isaiah 43 and speak it over your life.

Declare out loud :

(Your Name) , that’s how much you mean to me!

That’s how much I love you!

I’d sell off the whole world to get you back,

trade the creation just for you.

I get goosebumps, just saying that out loud. Ah, I love the truth. I love getting little whispers of God's truth in every day.

Thank you for spending time reading my thoughts, I really hope you're encouraged to replace lies with Gods truth and know that your value is found in your creator

- Ken