Replace

One of the scariest prayers I ever prayed, I wrote as a song :

Replace my heart with yours

Replace my thoughts with yours

Replace my will with your will

Replace my mind with yours

Replace my plan with yours

Replace my heart with your heart

Your heart, my heart

Your thoughts, my thoughts

Your will, my will

And I’ll delight in you

And if it’s not in your plan

And if it’s not your heart

And if it’s not in your will

Then it’s not for me

Cause you’re all I need

And I’ll look beyond my fear

And I’ll look beyond my past

And I’ll set my eyes on you

Cause you’re all I have

Yes you’re all I have

One of the scariest but in the same breath, easiest prayers I’ve ever prayed.

God renew my mind, renew my thoughts, renew my heart and make it like your own.

His will over my own, his control over my own, his plans over my own.

For the longest time, I’d make my own decisions, ignore Gods prompting and then ask God later why he wasn’t there.

Surrender is difficult for me, it forces me to lay down my own agenda and rest in the promise that God has for me. Surrender is putting down my fight, giving up my own plan, submitting my own will into the perfect hands of my father. My father who knows my future, my father who loves me unconditionally, my father who remains true to his word.

Living a life without surrender is like knowing who wins the battle and choosing the side of the loser. How can I know Gods purpose prevails, and I still decide to choose my own?

Proverbs 19:21

Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Like most things, it's a daily decision, it's reminding myself that his plan is greater.

It takes me singing ‘replace my heart with yours”, it takes reminding myself every day, it takes writing it on my wall, and ultimately it takes writing it on my heart.

And here’s the thing with writing it on your heart - when you get a heart revelation of the why, then we won’t get fatigued or bitter.

Come on! When we get the revelation that his will is good, pleasing and perfect, why would we want it any other way!

It takes me laying down my pride, laying down my fear and laying down my worldly expectation, it takes me digging deep into his word and not the ideals of the world, it takes me letting go of my current desires and holding on to the God destiny. I don't always get it right, half of the time I find myself questioning and doubting but because it's written in my heart, because its been revealed to my heart I KNOW that if it's not his will, I don't want it.

p.s you can find this song on my IGTV (@kendra.manuel)