Growing Pains

I found myself asking this question, "God, what are you teaching me in this season?" and I kid you not, he responded just 3 days later. I was actually stunned, like one of those "wait, what" moments. I was sitting at church and as the speaker spoke into the transition message I just got a clear sense of exactly what God has asked me to do in this season, better yet, a clear sense of exactly what God has POSITIONED me to do in this season. Positioned, what a beautiful word, it's so intentional. Placed, set, arranged, plant

For a while, I kind of felt like I was just floating, aimlessly trying to understand why certain events, thought patterns and actions in my life had changed. But after my 'wait what' moment I've never felt more sure, confident and secure in my mission in this season.

Now, usually in my blogs, I wouldn't hesitate to share, but something about this mission feels so sacred, so important that I dare not just nonchalantly share. I get chills just thinking about it. It's like every puzzle piece has somehow found its way onto the board. Every small glimpse I've been given throughout my life is starting to come to life and I'm so excited. Jesus, you're so good. Growing pains hurt, they really do, it feels unnatural, inconvenient and unfamiliar, but to see the fruit of it, is so sweet.

Proverbs 1:31

Therefore, they must eat the bitter fruit of living their own way.

Proverbs 24:13-14 (NLT)

My child, eat honey, for it is good, and the honeycomb is sweet to the taste. In the same way, wisdom is sweet to your soul. If you find it, you will have a bright future, and your hopes will not be cut short.

Thank you Jesus that your wisdom is like honey! I truly am able to say that living in accordance with his will is so sweet. Living in my own way, now that's bitter, unfruitful and stagnant.

Let's jump back to this "wait, what" moment - when I mention puzzle pieces, what I mean is that throughout my life, people, circumstances and scripture has pointed me towards glimpses of the burden of my heart. The burden that God has placed on me. In my 21st year, both a leader and my uncle spoke a word over me. A word that I had tattooed on me, a word that felt significant, a word that has weight. However, it's only now that I've seen the puzzle slowly starting to piece together. And let me tell you, it's a beautiful picture - the little that I have seen at least.

My anthem, leading me in this new season has been - Brand New, (SONS THE BAND, Tribl, Steve Davis, Jordan Coelle) https://open.spotify.com/track/2hvpCFzLL9fys50k7v7tDf?si=89044131d9144d0d

You Restore the Life in me

I thought was Lost

You Relight the Fire

In my Broken Heart

You see all the Beauty

In the old and used

When I think it’s Dead and gone

You make it Brand New

It's funny, I always happen to find a worship song that so beautifully carries me into my next. And this song truly declares God's goodness. My next is something I've never seen before and it's daunting, scary and exciting but I'm so thankful for God's beautiful hand redirecting my life, revealing his plan and reexamining my heart. As I charter new territory, new thought patterns and new plans I'll continue to share God's whispers.

You are loved, valued and seen.